It's a little different now. I guess it's seen as sutler, may be the only difference. That, and the fact that I care now. I never cared before, not really. I romanticized so much, that when things like that happened it had the same effect as any other problem in my life, no matter now hard the problem. Now, it's the small things that eat away at me. I understand the larger pictures that I cannot change, responsibilities I accept.